Beer, I miss you.
November has been a loooong stressful month, huh? I've been stuck at home every weekend pulling essays out of my ass to not only pass this semester but to apply to UC's. Rest assured, I've been thinking about you every day time I had to write a paper. We should meet again soon.


UC's, god damn you!
Applying is a biiiiitch!! Applications are due before the end of this month but my personal statements have not been finalized yet. With that, the pressure is on.


Las Vegas, I look forward to you.
A week of sin right before Thanksgiving dinner with the family. I love it!! Hopefully I'll be able to take advantage of this weekend to release all that tension and come back with a brand new husband/tattoo/piercing attitude.

Me, get your shit together, damnit!!!
My ass should have been writing my personal statements a month ago to prevent stress but NOOOOO!! My procrastination has turned me into a huge "M." Good job, buddy! It's paying off now, huh?


All I ask of myself is to get my priorities straight and everything shall be peachy.

Basically what I've been trying to say is:
Am I overwhelmed? Completely
Will I give up? No
Why? Because giving up is not my style *WINK*

So I'm here in Tennessee to help my cousin take care of her two kids while her husband is in Afghanistan. Man, they're a handful but they're so cute! My nephew has a mohawk. It also seems like he'll be a future drummer. Woohoo! Drummers run in the family!! Haha yeah right, I wish I was good. Perhaps he'll live the dream for me. 

All I've been doing here is babysitting, eating and watching the olympics. Its not that exciting but it feels like I'm on vacation with kids yelling as my alarm clock. I really needed a break from all that studying and reading in summer school.  The teacher still hasn't posted up the grades. GRRRR!  I AM happy though since I got to witness the US winning the swimming relay race. That moment was awesome! My cousin and I were jumping and screaming like crazy and I now have a crush on Michael Phelps. Lol!

I'm still debating if I should go back home on Sunday or Tuesday (day right before fall semester starts). If I change my flight to Sunday, I have to pay $105 dollars more but I'll be able to buy my books before school starts. I really want to go back home to mentally prepare myself for another hectic semester but I also want to save money to go to Las Vegas in November. Hmmm, what should I do??


Things I need to do or decide on:
Leaving Sunday vs Tuesday
AT&T  iphone vs Sprint other phones
Brushing up on spanish & japanese

 The thing I love about journals is that I get to bitch, bitch, bitch about life. I don't mean to whine all the time but when I do actually have a good day, I like to sit and reflect on just how well the day went. 

So summer school just started and my class is stressful as hell! Its not the teacher, the subject or the lack of cute guys in my class (cuz surprisingly, there are quite a few cuties!), its the fact that this class is only 1 month long and we have to learn ALL the information needed for a regular semesters worth (5 months). With that, I have to read a chapter a day (30+ pages of names, dates, information per chapter), have a quiz every morning for the chapter and a weekly exam of all the chapters read for the week. Aint that a bitch! So far I managed to ace the first exam by pure fucking miracle, but this week, I'm not feeling so confident. 

But ANYWHO
Its finally a holiday weekend therefore I get to relax, sleep in, look at my japanese porn (aka Arashi but more specifically, Ohno), have a beer and prepare for another week of studying/work.

*Gasps* There! Bitching is complete! The world is a better place now. LOL! =)

 Lately I've been feeling like shit. I don't know if its the weather, my cold that just wont disappear or hormones. I swear, everything is making me so emotional! Like I would cry for no reason at all. 

If I had to dig deep down, I'd say its the stress from school. I really want to go to certain university but with my past grades, my counselor said that I'd have to keep a 4.0 just to have a SLIGHT chance of getting in. That part doesn't really bother me though, I already made peace with the fact I probably might not get accepted....its just the pressure from my mom. "If you try and you're persistent, you should get in." I told her its harder than it sounds but all she said was "I'll pray harder for you." GRRRR. School is hard, mother. I AM trying.

...I just don't want to disappoint her again, you know? I wasn't exactly a grateful kid so she has already had some upset moments about me. I still remember all these promises I made and broke:
-piano recital
-study accounting
-become a great chef
-get into a private university
the list goes on. Its horrible.

I need to get myself together but I don't know how. Its hard when your closest friends already have their life set. Maybe it is the weather cuz last year I was on top of my game.  *pats head* I will be ok...I hope...

Current Mood: stressed
Current Music: Arashi - We Can Make It

Man, what a week! You think with finals and such, I'd be studying like crazy but my motivation has gone staight down the toilet. I'm a little nervous since I've been telling my family how "easy" my classes are and that I should be getting a 4.0 but with the spanish and psychology final...yeahhhh....things may not turn out that way. 

Anywho, what really bothers me the most is that my lap top broke!!! Can you imagine a whole week without my documents/music/movies!!??? It was torture! But luckily I have computer nerds as friends who were able to fix it for me. They said if I brought it to Geek Squad, they would've charged me 300 bucks or tell me it was hopeless. I believe I should be getting my baby back tonight. YAY!!!

As for the diet/exercise plan, so far its been good. This weekend though, I indulged with italian and filipino food. Now that I started watching Bambino, I can't get stop craving pasta damnit! As for the calorie chart where I was supposed to keep track of my food intake, HAHA that only lasted me 2 days! Man I'm lazy. I may love Nino but I'm betting Ohno is the better match for me. We'll both be lazy and unmotivated together. Woohoo! But lucky for Ohno, he gets to be man-handled by Nino. HAHA!

Oh...one thing I fogot to mention, I watched The Ex on Saturday and it was HORRIBLE! The comedic timing was off or they were trying too hard to be weird. I thought this movie would have had some potential since I LOVE scrubs and arrested development and the 2 leading men from both of those shows were in the movie but no....I was highly disappointed. 

Yosh! Now I'm either gonna study for psychology like I should or take a nap. You guess what I'll do!

Current Mood: lazy/sleepy
Current Music: Relax by Mana

Man, I haven't written in a journal for years! I've been so busy with work and personal drama but now that I have no life other than school, I might as well, eh? 

So today was my first day with a personal trainer and MAN did he whoop my ass today!! I can barely walk nor sit! He was actually cute but not my type. I would describe him as a hip hop pretty boy. I'm more into the grungy/nerdy type. HAHA! Anywho, I'm starting to eat better but I'm not enjoying it especially since I have to lower the amount of rice (I'm filipino damnit!). I also have to keep track of my calorie intake. Its like having a hw assignment every day. Grr! Ok, enough bitching...

To end on a good note, I'm watching Spiderman 3 tonight with "the guys." It would be awesome if we could watch it on imax huh? Too bad we're all low on $$. I'm not a huge fan of spiderman though...didn't like the first one, second one was alright. From what my trainer told me today, part 3 was "alright." Still looking forward to it though. All of us (the 4 of us) haven't hung out all week.  

Anywho, its shower time!!!

Current Mood: exhausted
Current Music: fight song - arashi